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Afternoon all,

 

I turned 50 recently and I'm leaning into it and embracing it.

 

Growing up we were wired to DREAD aging. Hitting the Big Four-Oh, hitting half a CENTRUY were landmarks that implied you were one foot in the grave apparently.

 

I am very grateful that my 50th birthday was a celebration! Whatever vestige of fear I had simply wasn't there. I'm EXCITED for the future and what it holds. 

 

I'm currently 360 lbs. and have about a hundred lbs.to lose. But it's more than that. I have decades of bad programming I have to unload. I have decades of misconceptions I have to free myself from.

And I do it gladly. I'm a veteran of the Army. For years my concept of what was 'healthy' was informed by my experiences in the service. I may have passed PT tests but I wasn't healthy by any means. I could run two miles in 14 minutes but I carried my cigarettes and lighter in my uniform and I'd light up as soon as I could after the run was over.

 

The Army taught me to 'white knuckle' everything and that the lifestyle I was living, doing PT every morning, could offset the damage I was doing to myself with garbage food and smoking and drinking.

 

It took a long time to get to this state, a lot of damage. It will take time to correct. There is no quick fix, no YouTube video or Facebook reel. It will take going back to formula to fix and I'm here for it.

 

I'm 360 lbs. today, tomorrow and every day moving forward I'm getting back to who I actually am.

 

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Good post. Straight from the heart. I am an Indian Navy veteran myself. Completed 56 orbits around the Sun. Was a regular smoker when I was just a cadet. Represented the smokers group when I ran my first marathon way back in 1990. The winner finished in 2 hours 40 minutes. I took one hour more.

For what it's worth, my two cents on the path you have chosen now: in the end there is only ONE COMPANION who will be with us till the end of our life. It's now our wives, our children, our friends, our pets or whatever. It is our own body. If we don't keep it in shape, we cannot blame anyone else for what happens to us when we're older. I would like to not take the support of anyone till I die. 

Cheers

 

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